It is possible to assassinate my heroes with the scope of my individualism. However, by their own persistence to themselves, I believe that they have chosen me to pursue a self. What is literature but the illumination of that which I would write? Salinger speaks through me; to me; whispers, ‘Where to, little boy?’ My answer is the dogged pen to page which lights consistently the pathway home. It is on that road that I alone can trip my way back to myself.

Today may be a hard day because I don’t normally go a Friday night without at least 1 glass of wine.  So I’ll need all my strength this weekend not to pop any bottles.  Just going to preoccupy my time by cleaning and downloading some much needed music.

Normally this diet gets really hard because of the temptation to eat all your favourites.  I just keep telling myself “it’s only a week”.  So far no temptations but I smelled my mom toasting some nice Guyana bread on the stove today.  I love bread so this was very hard for me.  I sprayed my room with perfume and that seemed to get my mind off the smell LOL.

The first time I did the diet I was about 21.  I normally follow it for 7 days once a month until I just cannot bear it anymore or I have lost the weight I wanted.  Obviously the latter hasn’t been the rule.  The first week I lost 12 lbs within the seven days and put on 3 after I was off the diet.  The next month I lost 5 lbs and gained none.  However, the third month I lost only 3 lbs.  I found this very discouraging because it was a week of no roti for me.

from what I remember, I tried again the next year but had terrible results.  Probably because I was also consuming alcohol during the week.  (I like a little wine with my dinner meal).  I won’t be making that mistake this time around.

7 days.
Dedication and confidence.

This is the regiment I will be loosely following: The Cabbage Soup Diet by Catherine

I made the following changes to her guide:

• I’m not eating veggies on the “veggie days” just eating the same amount of the soup as I would any other day + lots of fruits (mostly apples and orange).
• Catherine lays out many substitutions and because I’m allergic to banana’s I will be substituting these with papaya instead.
• On “meat days” I will have a salad served with steamed chicken breast and homemade salad dressing (little to no oil).
• I LOVE LOVE LOVE spicy food and because it’s a natural way to get rid of toxins I have spiced up my soup with ground cayenne peppers.  (I’m also able to add more if I feel to, like at dinner time).
• I work out at a gym but I will be cutting down my intensity and cardio time becuase of the lack of protein and carbs in my diet

Starting weight: 141.2 lbs
My goal: 7 lbs
(I am hoping for 10 lbs but 7 is my minimum.  You really never know with this diet because each time your body will have a different amount of crap to get rid of).

I’ve done this diet before and had great result sometimes, sometimes not as much as I’de like.

Truly… my weight gain is due to many of bad decisions during my early twenties.  Some of which include partying hard, drinking too often, and general laziness.  I must say, I would much rather sit in bed knitting and watching TV than get up and do something, anything.  But just like every time I have given up a bad habit, this came to me all of a sudden and ONLY when I was ready for it.

To have a vision, one must be prepared to receive it, and when it comes, to accept it.

- High Eagle

This was me a week ago at a New Years party.  Don’t min my excessive make up, it was new  years damn it!  Either way, I don’t want to look this way in 4 months.

With this blog you’ll probably figure out a lot about how wastefully I spend my precious time, but here a little preview:
I live in Scarborugh,

ON.  Work at a gym called Snap Fitness. Working on many things career-wise (because i do not make enough money for my age).

Spend a lot of time drivin

g, watching shows/movies & knitting.  I love to draw, design, write, create & love.

More later…

Happy New Year!